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anundine ([personal profile] anundine) wrote2020-06-03 11:18 pm

hey, hey

Hey. You know how Obi-wan didn't know about the chips?

For how long, after Order 66, do you think Obi-wan spent obsessively going over what he did to make Cody believe he deserved to be shot?

(Because you know that as far as Obi-wan is concerned, if Cody ordered Obi-wan shot, then Obi-wan deserved it. He just doesn't know what it is that made him deserving.)

(How long did he pore over every interaction with Anakin, every conversation, every time he looked away? When did he fail his brother? Was it this time? Or was it this one? What could he have done better--because he could have done better. If he had done better none of this would have happened.)


How many years? Did he ever stop?

Do you think he planned out countless variants of every possible apology for every possible transgression, depending on what he thought was his most pertinent failure that day? 

(Do you think they all devolve into "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, please, I'm so sorry"?)

Because I do :)

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[personal profile] herothief 2020-06-04 05:39 pm (UTC)(link)
how DARE you make me think of this. I can't- oh my god. this is too sad (and very true). I hate you ;_;
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[personal profile] schneefink 2020-06-04 06:13 pm (UTC)(link)
Yess.
(M at first once or twice he thinks that maybe Cody was mind-controlled - maybe another of Dooku's apprentices was there, working with Grievous? - but then he tells himself to stop it with the useless wishful thinking to try and escape responsibility.)