one am supernatural thoughts

rewatching supernatural really, really hammers home how young sam and dean are, really. they're just....they are so young, and it explains so much about why they make the stupid, stupid decisions they do. first time i watched this show, the were older than me. they were Adults, and Adults act reasonably and wisely, right? and now i'm watching this, and they're younger than i am, and of course they spiral like they do. of course they make dumb, reckless decisions.

also dean's just really pretty, and it explains his weird, self-conscious, hyper-masculine facade he projects at all times, because if i was a teenager with big eyes and a rosebud mouth growing up in biker bars and around john "toxic masculinity" winchester, i'd have a complex, too.